Posts Tagged ‘wait on God’

image3Waiting is a hard game to play.  I can’t think of a time where waiting ever seemed like a worthwhile or pleasant experience.  Even waiting in line for the best roller coaster at the theme park is still waiting… and it’s not that enjoyable.  Then you enter in times of waiting where you are hoping and waiting for an unknown outcome… the result could be good, but it could also be bad.

I think waiting also tends to numb us to reality.  The old “out of sight out of mind” adage comes to mind (no pun intended, that would be too much use of my mind).  All that to say, that the waiting can lull us to sleep at bit.  And left unchecked can lead to bitterness, disappointment, lack of purpose, prayer or even hope.

Did I mention waiting is hard?

And to top it all off we live in a culture that doesn’t exactly lend oneself to cultivating a discipline of patience and waiting.  Whether it is food, my commute, a webpage loading, a return phone call or email – fast is the operative word.

But where does “fast” fit in the spiritual journey God calls us on?  Are we given permission to skip over the periods of “waiting”?  Scripture is replete with images of serene, peaceful and even patient times that find deep resonance in our souls… if we are able to get below the surface and connect with them.  I believe the promise of Lamentations 3:25 that, “The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks Him.”  I find resonance with the Psalmist who writes, “I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His word I hope” (103:5).

 But how do these become practice and not mere platitudes?  How do we truly wait with hope?
Practice.  I’m sure there could be a more spiritual answer, but what I’ve found to be true is that it simply takes practice.
And nothing has given my family and I more of an opportunity to practice than on this journey with Cole.  We are in the “waiting phase” of this Perthes disease.  As if waiting through a disease isn’t hard enough, it has it’s own built in waiting phase.  And it’s a waiting without knowing.  We don’t know how the next 3-5 years of waiting will shape out.  And we most certainly can’t see the future or know the long term outcome… so we do what we really don’t do best, but are learning to do better… we wait.
For Cole, he’s having a blast during the waiting.  With some special shoes to level out his walk and run, he’s full speed ahead (with a slight limp) all the time.  We’ve gone from soccer season to baseball season and at times step back to reflect on what a miracle that is.  But then we stop for x-rays and we are reminded that… we are still waiting.  We’re waiting, but we’re waiting with hope.
We will travel to Alabama tomorrow to see how these last few months of waiting have been.  The x-rays will be read and we’ll move into the next few months… of waiting.  But we are so grateful that we wait with hope and we don’t wait alone.  And we are praying and claiming the promises of Isaiah 40:31…
“But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.”
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WaitingWaiting is hard… especially for me.  I think my life really has had only one speed and it doesn’t seem that waiting fits well into that speed.  I mean, I have trouble at doctor’s offices, red lights and even my mac pinwheeling.  Waiting often feels purposeless.  I’ve got better things to do than wait.

I have honestly tried to evaluate this problem… even though I have trouble reconciling it as a problem.  Surely there are better things to do wait… but what if waiting is the better thing?

Waiting often requires me to deal with my thoughts, my inner self and soul.  Waiting makes me stop and actually slow down enough to notice people and things around me.  Waiting also allows me to hear that “still small voice” that gets so easily drown out at a full-throttle, noisy pace of life.  “Be still and know that I am God.” (Psalm 46:10).  I’ve often tried to rewrite that verse.  Why can’t I know that He is God full speed ahead?  Is there something that is only available to us in the waiting?

Isaiah 40:31 has always been a favorite verse of mine, “But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.”  I think I have always loved the promises of this verse.  Who doesn’t want to fly like an eagle or run with such endurance beyond a marathon or even an ultra and not get tired?  But how are we able to claim those promises?  Only by waiting on the Lord.

It’s only through the waiting that our strength is renewed.  It’s only in the waiting that our relationship with Him is given new life and strength.  Dependency on the Holy Spirit and walking in His power is best discovered in the waiting.  There is purpose in the waiting.  A purpose that can only be found in the waiting.

So today we find ourselves waiting.  We’ve gone from waiting in a pre-surgical waiting room to having to take the longest and hardest walk any parent can take.  It’s the walk down the hallway towards doors that are restricted for parents.  It’s the walk that at one point requires me to let go of the little hand that is clinging so tightly to mine.  And at the end of that walking… more waiting.

The waiting room is filled with others waiting.  But this waiting room is also filled with a presence – the presence of God who so graciously and lovingly is inviting me into waiting.  To listen through the surrounding noise and hear His still small voice.  To enter into rest where my strength can be renewed… and yes, I am tired.  An invitation into waiting is an invitation into His strong, sustaining arms.  It’s where I need to be and it’s where I am.  Thank you Jesus for the waiting.  Help me learn to be a better ‘waiter.’